Tuesday, February 23, 2010

emo lagik~


melayan lagu kak esah... dah 20 tahun usia lagu ni... masa shin baru nak masuk tingkatan 1... tp kalo dengar dengar time meroyan.. mau meleleh ayaq mata..

gambo ni shin recycle dari arkib file lama.. shin amik guna hp sailormoon shin ( hp yg sampai skrg lom pulih dari kecederaan ) 7hb August 2007, masa ni shin melawat arwah nenek.. sakit stroke... seminggu lebih lepas tu.. arwah meninggal dunia... sampai umah tok.. nenek dah selamat di kebumikan.. x sempat nak nengok.. sian mak shin.. tp dia x nanges pon.. mungkin sebab kami selalu pi lawat arwah nenek masa dia hidup.. dan malam tu jugak.. parent shin ada keje kena bikin.. mak shin x attend kenduri arwah.. then seminggu lepas tu.. kalo mak shin duduk duduk.. kami borak kat dapur... kekadang kuar gak air mata dia..

shin syg kat mak shin.. walaupun dia garang... sangat sangat.. tp shin x penah dendam.. kalo mak sakit.. walapun shin tak sanggup nak uruskan ( biarlah kakak uruskan.. dia pompuan ) tp shin takkan berenggang ngan mak.. in case kalo xde anak anak mak yg ingat kat mak. shin takkan biarkan mak camtu jer.. sib baik shin dok dekat dekat ngan mak shin.. kalo shin keje jejauh.. sapa nak tengok mak... tp shin tau.. anak anak mak semua baik.. cuma diaorg x inesen mcm shin jer..

uiks.. melalut dah entri ni... jiwa kacau.. so sambil layan lagu lagu meruntun kalbu.. shin x sabar nak tunggu bulan 6... orang dari Miri nak balik... cepat la sampai bulan 6...

jom karok lagu kak esah ni..

Ouh dunia ini penuh kepalsuan
Ouh mungkinkah tiada keikhlasan
Apakah ini satu pembalasan
Ku sedar kebesaran mu Tuhan

Aku bagai sorang kembara jalanan
Terumbang ambing di lautan gelora
Mencari kebahagiaan
Dahan untuk menumpang kasih
Mungkinkah suratan
Hidup kan selalu kesorangan

Hati membeku mengingatkan
Kata janji manismu ohhh..
Ku dilambung angan angan
Belaian kasih sayang suci dari mu
Ouh kejamnya

Lidah tidak bertulang
Ucapan cinta menghiris kalbu
Ku kan pergi membawa diri
Cinta di hati kan terkubur lagi

Tidak ku fahami mengapa terjadi
Peristiwa pahit mengguris hati
Jalanan hidup ini sudah tertulis
Ku tempuhi dengan kesabaran
Ku sedar kebesaran mu Tuhan

sekian~

*i'm shin.. i'm inesen

16 comments:

Frodo Baggins said...

hohohoho lagu chenta dulu2 kala. tp releven lagik. rilexs ...doakan org dari miri tu x lemas kat sungai sarawak! keh3x


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asna ashraff said...

sape kak esah?

ikanbilis said...

<3 Mak

AzAz said...

alo asna... Aishah ler... ish...

kan... byk bersabo ye... mmg payah nk cari ape yg kite nak... slalu dpt ape kite x nak jer tmbh2 dlm dunia PLU byk hipokrit kan... nnti2 biasalah tu... jgn cpt percaya kt org k...

Qarl said...

"ku tempuhi dengan kesabaran
ku sedar kebesaranMU
TUHAN"

sgt berbekas madah diatas...

Terry Verry Berry. said...

setiap dugaan ada hikmah nya..
mungkin allah ada tujuan bagi shin menghadapi dugaan-dugaan yang perit sebegini.. mungkin untuk membuat shin lagi cekal, untuk improve shin. untuk bg shin jd a better person.

tapi bersyukur la sebab shin masih sihat, masih ada kawan-kawan yang prihatin and sayangi shin. :)
be strong kay? *hugs.
the one that made you heartbroken is the one at lost, not you.

never look down on yourself.

words, maybe just will will be a mere words, but words can bring you up, and also bring you down. I hope my words, and others who support you will lift you up. ♥

i'm shin... i'm inesen said...

frodo : uiks.... aishh xmo la jadi camtu... nnt shin suh dia mandi swimming pool jer.. jgn mandi sungai ek..

ansa : aishah la dok

ikan bilis : haa.. jgn derhaka kat mak.. ( pandai ckp org )

azaz : my weakness.. cpt cair, lelebih lagi yg caring.. ckp munga munga... lomantik.. adoii..

qarl : yup

terry : hmm terry pun camtu gak k.. be strong..

Hans said...

chill .. =)

i'm shin... i'm inesen said...

hans : bagi la cpr ker.. massage ker.. hilang skit stress... *sempat

Adam said...

asek emo je... meh cni~~lalala

HANS XY... said...

errm..esah ..nostalgia/..

i'm shin... i'm inesen said...

adam : pi kat adam?? nk! nk! nk! *mula da

hans : 20 thn maa usia lgu kak esah ni

Terry Verry Berry. said...

yes, I'm just like that, but at least I stick to my words. I do what I believed in, I have my own philosophy and commitment.

Don't compare us to be the same, since we're not entirely. You are you, and me is me.

I may have not do what I the things I wrote to you, but atleast my intention is true. I want you to be happy again. I want you to be you.. not being a sad guy like this.

oh yeah, just for your info dearies, you told me once, that you won't let your heart be broken again, never anymore, since you wont hope for anyone anymore, but it seems mere words from someone you just know can make u melt..yes, they maybe flirtatious, they maybe cute and handosome, or pretty, but words and appearance alone can be 'menipu', its their intention. I wont comment much on that.. you just know that on your own.

You know my story and how I survived it.. don't set yourself a limit, be something even more, make someone your priority, like how I made that special someone I knew from blog my priority, but in the end, I got my heart broken, but did i stop? NO! since I still believe in him.

P/S : open your eyes wider, the life isn't so bad if you appreciate it more. The world revolves on its own not around you ; or me.

---end--- ♥

i'm shin... i'm inesen said...

terry : fyi... pesona rupa seseorang tu terlalu subjective k.. bila suka kat seseorang tu bukan sebab rupa semata mata.. even kalo orang lain tengok pon lom tentu dia akan ckp.. 'wow, taste sgt'.. xde nya mcm tu.. tp ada yg menarik.. walau yg menarik tu palsu semata mata..

i just hate my self yg rasa stupid.. berangan bahagia la sgt.. padahal xde pon..

skrg ni dah nak ok.. x tepek entri emo lagi da k.. no worry~

tingkap said...

huhh...lame giler x dengar lagu ni..~~...layan gak arr

i'm shin... i'm inesen said...

tingkap : sila sila